Well, this week has been a busy one. Things are changing a bit, but good change.
This last week has disappeared really. With my partner on nights, the days and nights blur into one a bit. I have felt it a bit odd being on my own every evening, and it has felt a bit stressful dealing with Bubs’ nighttime routine, and waking up routine, all on my own. I went to see my Mum at the weekend, which was a nice change from the routine, and gave me a bit of a break. I was feeling quite low and emotional on Saturday. I helped my Mum to do her shopping at Tesco’s, and then she suggested we have a drink at the cafe. I was feeling OK by this point, but then I felt even worse when someone had a go at me for ‘taking their high chair’, when in fact I had taken it from an empty table. I went and got them another high chair, but this woman was so rude. I don’t think people realise how deep these things can go into someone; yes it was about a highchair, but having someone basically shout at me in a cafe, well, it nearly had me in tears. I held it together, and I was able to have a nice afternoon, but it still hurts me to think this happened, and if I am not careful my anxiety will replay this scene over and over again and I will pick myself apart.
Weight wise, I stayed the same last Friday, which was to be expected with a few dinners out. In fact I was rather pleased I’d stayed the same and not put any on! I think it shows how far I’ve come in that I’ve had a few nice meals out, and managed to make wise choices, which has meant I haven’t put weight on. This week has been less about meals out, and more about making meals at home. I love cooking and trying new things. I have started to make soups to take with me to work, to fill me up at lunch, and I started with butternut squash, which is a soup I have done before. I roasted the butternut squash and made a soup with red pepper, carrot, onion, garlic and a bit of chilli and stock. It tasted OK but was a little watery and plain, I am not sure why this was, but it was pleasant enough to eat for lunch. I can’t believe what a difference it has made to lunchtimes however, I feel much more full up and really has helped me keep my propoints until dinner. I have just made another soup, a spicy roasted vegetable one, which I have worked out as 2 propoints per serving. I am really looking forward to trying this one for lunch tomorrow!
Things will be changing a bit here soon. My sister will be coming to live with us for a bit, and I must say I am very happy about it. It will be lovely to have her around, and to have some company over the evenings when Dan works nights.
I am currently reading The Stolen Girl by Renita D’Silva and it is a really gripping read. I just need to know what will happen next! I have been a bit slower with reading this week but I am hoping I can make a bit more time for it over this weekend! I have a few more lovely books lined up to review, which I am planning to read whilst I sun myself in Menorca. I have also had some interesting book-related news today which may turn into something exciting, so watch this space! What have you been reading over the summer, give me some of your recommendations.
Bubs is just being so…grown up. It is so unnerving at times! She is speaking more and more, and saying a lot of little phrases such as “it’s there!” “get up” and so on. She says “mumma” a lot as if she is asking me a question, and at the moment she is really enjoying reading her books.
She has started to make an ear piercing scream when she doesn’t get her way, when she wants attention, or if she is just happy and excited. It is a scream as if someone is being murdered. Out and about, it is very stressful as people just look at you as if you can stop her doing it! WE have managed to sort one thing out – she will stay in the buggy or the trolley now (she was trying to get out before) but she still makes this shrill scream. Distraction works and talking to her, but there are times when she just screams over and over again, not because she’s unhappy, it’s quite the opposite. I try my best to ignore her, or to distract her, but at night it is very draining. Any suggestions, please send on a postcard!
She is starting Nursery tomorrow, for a morning session. She went for an hour on her own on Monday, and had a good time, but was a bit clingy afterwards. I am sure she will have a fabulous time, and really enjoy herself. It is a little weird knowing a stranger will be looking after her, changing her nappy and feeding her. But She needs nursery, she needs to learn and develop and she needs the energy that I really can’t muster all the time. Let’s see what happens!
I am excited as I have some tea I am going to review, soon here on the blog. I love trying new teas so this will be lovely. This week I have just been drinking my PG Tips. I was rather excited to buy a PG Tips Mug from Tesco’s at the weekend. A perfect cup for my travel to work I think!