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Depression

There are many posts that I have written over the past few months, that I never published. Since October, life got pretty shit. I was diagnosed with depression, my Dad died and well, it was awful. This post was written in October 2015. These were […]

I don’t want to stop living because my dad is dying

When I was at work the other day, I was talking about starting to go to the gym. Someone remarked that perhaps I shouldn’t be doing that right now, because, well, you know. What they meant by you know, was that my dad is dying. […]

Prose for Thought – Now I Know

This poem is inspired by the birth of the Bubba and I am linking up with Prose for Thought.

Now I Know

When I first saw you

I didn’t feel a rush

I just felt confused and foggy mist decended

I didn’t think about the moment

suspended, frozen, paused

forever to repeat each growing month, each year

When I first held you

I didn’t feel a gush

I couldn’t understand; couldn’t comprehend

No warmth like brandy to the soul

No music, no colour, no rainbow shining

Just a purple blue wriggle of hands and feet

Angry eyes of a sleep disturbed

I felt a bit empty; a vessel perturbed

10 weeks of tears salty sweet and milky

Of rocking, lullabyes, late night cries

ropes being grasped; lessons learnt

this morning sun shining

a realisation, a belated neuron blast switching

a found puzzle piece

Now I know how it feels

Emily Tealady 2013

Prose for Thought

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