thoughts and things
Everyone knows when you’re pregnant, you get loads of cravings, right? I’m craving…… -Peace and quiet -Cereal -A lie in -A day free from frozen -Maternity clothing that actually fits -Lots of warm tea -Brie -To be able to sit and watch Netflix for a […]
I love a good debate. I love talking to others about a range of topics and I like to hear others opposing views. Having strong opinions and being able to discuss and justify your beliefs are very important skills. Listening to others point of view, […]
This is my life now…..
Lying in the dark, listening to the Frozen Soundtrack.
Making a hot chocolate without cream that should have been with cream but they weren’t going to drink it anyway but still they wanted, didn’t want the cream.
You’re Elsa when Anna sings but you’re Anna when Elsa sings, OK? Basically you don’t sing. At all.
Watching Ben and Holly until you believe you are actually an elf *blows trumpet*
Eating tomatoes at nursery, but not at home.
Playing matching card games with a complete cheat. And making sure they win or else there’s big trouble.
Pushing the trike around whilst she peddles madly screaming “we need more speed!” in an attempt to accost other children in the park.
Everyone’s her best friend. Or they’re not. But they are.
Laughing manically whilst she smears expensive hand cream into the sofa.
Watching an evolving sense of style which includes using a coat for trousers.
Figuring out answers to questions such as “Who made the steering wheel?” And “Why do we have tables?”
Not touching anything without first being told to. But when I’m told to touch something check it’s in the right way.
Clearly not understanding very simple instructions.
Finding things which have been taken from various places such as nursery or my dressing table hidden in pockets.
Making up bedtime stories but being told exactly what needs to happen in the story and it then taking a very long time to complete the story which is nothing like how it started.
Furniture being used as balance beams and trampolines and wishing she didn’t like gymnastics so much
Wanting the new baby to be called Cupcake
Experimenting with make up such as nail polish for lipstick
Feeling so very tired and wondering why you have such a spirited child
Breastfeeding has become less about the feeding. It’s lost sight of what it actually is: a way to feed your child. It is a physiological event that occurs in the mother. For the child. Obviously it’s the natural way to feed your child. But that […]
There’s got to be some perks to this pregnancy lark….right? Pregnancy Perks Not having to pay for the dentist Being able to get out of anything by saying you’re pregnant Being able to sit down on buses or stare at people intently rubbing your belly […]
I had just come to the conclusion that one child was plenty enough thank you, when I found out I was pregnant.
My first thought was: oh shit.
My second thought was: oh shit, I can’t drink anything now. HOW AM I GOING TO COPE?!
My third thought was: oh god, I’m not going to sleep until 2020.
Don’t get me wrong, I am pleased that we are having another baby. It’s taken long enough. But this time things are just a bit different.
When people ask me “is this pregnancy different to the first?” I immediately think: of course this pregnancy is different.
For a start, I’ve been sleep deprived for most of the last 3 years. So, you know, that adds a little edge to things. Also, this time I can’t just lie on the sofa and do nothing all evening when I feel ill. This time, I have a three year old who still wants you to hold them as you walk along the pavement and who wants me to be the fairy godmother when she’s playing Cinderella.
This time around, I have no time (or energy for that matter) for yoga or swimming. I am drinking too much caffiene and I accidentally ate a cheese board the day after I found out I was pregnant because I forgot about the whole “don’t eat cheese” thing.
This time, I hardly have any time to actually think I am pregnant at all.
I also have the benefit/disadvantage of knowing exactly what I’ve let myself in for. I can learn from my previous experience and I know for sure what I want and don’t want to happen this time. But I know one thing I can’t avoid and that is I’ll still have to push this Bubba out of my Va-Jay-Jay. And I know it fricking hurts.
This time, I pay a fleeting glance to emails telling me my baby weighs the same as an avocado. I don’t have the 26 apps I had last time, all telling me the same information that I poured over night after night. I bought actual books last time to read and studied like I was a student midwife.
I might try and do some pelvic floor excersizes on the way to work if I sneeze and start to panic, unlike the military set schedule I had 3 years ago. (Seriously I bet I could’ve cracked nuts with my pelvic floor).
I don’t have to buy anything this time round; I have everything going moldy in the garage. I just need to have a day sometime to go and bleach it all down. But I have plenty of time for that.
I am not sure if I can be described as “glowing” second time round. I frequently forget to brush my hair and put make up on, meaning I look more like a character out of The Walking Dead each day. Hell, I haven’t even shaved my legs this year yet. I used to pour over maternity sections in shops choosing jeans and dresses that accentuated my bump. This time I’m just wearing leggings and baggy dresses. Looking like a pregnant bag lady is quite a skill you know.
Oh, and symptoms: if you’re any different to last time (which, in fairness was 3 years ago so how could you even remember) then you must be having a boy. Or a girl. Or a hairy baby.
I know I am lucky to experience this again. I am grateful for this experience, no matter how tired I am or messy looking I become. Once August is here, we will have our little family complete and that will be a great feeling. I am looking forward to baby snuggles and seeing Nancy’s face when she sees her brother or sister.
And also, I’ll never have to be pregnant again.
Answers to children’s most irritating questions…. WHY? Well, because it is. Because that’s what someone named them. Who knows? I’m not sure really. What made you think of that? I don’t know why daddy always leaves the loo seat up. Beats me. Why are you […]
There are many posts that I have written over the past few months, that I never published. Since October, life got pretty shit. I was diagnosed with depression, my Dad died and well, it was awful. This post was written in October 2015. These were […]
This is a chilling novel which really had me spooked! A fast paced thriller which really gets the tension going from page one. I was able to read a copy of this book via Netgalley.
Here’s the blurb:
Someone’s getting married. Someone’s getting murdered.
In a dark, dark wood
Nora hasn’t seen Clare for ten years. Not since Nora walked out of school one day and never went back.
There was a dark, dark house
Until, out of the blue, an invitation to Clare’s hen do arrives. Is this a chance for Nora to finally put her past behind her?
And in the dark, dark house there was a dark, dark room
But something goes wrong. Very wrong.
And in the dark, dark room….
Some things can’t stay secret for ever.
The Review
When Nora gets an invite to her old school friends hen do, she hesitates about going. She hasn’t spoken to Clare for 10 years, so why did she send the invite?
Accepting to go on the Hen Do, Nora ventures from the safety of her small London flat to the wilderness of Northumberland. Flo, chief bridesmaid, has organised a weekend at her Aunts secluded house. From here on, Nora meets the other attendees, all seemingly with secrets they want to keep. The tension builds until a chilling climax which really had me guessing right up until the end.
This book read like a horror movie; I could almost imagine what the opening scenes would look like as Nora walked into the woods and to the Glass House. The tension is built so well and you are dying to know what will happen, but at the same time dreading it because you know something horrible is going to happen!
There is an element of trying to guess who or what will happen, and I loved the fact that with this book, I wasn’t sure until near the end. It genuinely gave me the creeps at times, especially before I went to bed!
I really enjoyed this book, and if you like thrillers and mystery kind of books then this is perfect for you. I gave this book 4 out of 5 stars.
In a Dark Dark Wood by Ruth Ware is published by Harvill Secker and is out NOW via Amazon
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