I want you to know – Prose for thought

I want you to know I still think of you

Although you were never really here

My birthday is when you were due

I will remember you each and every year

 

I know some say you were not real

but something started; something grew

you had no heart; you could not feel

I can’t believe that could be true

 

I don’t know why you went too far

implanted outside the warm and dark

I will always carry an invisible scar

your life ended before it ever did start

 

I want you to know I think of you

and will always wonder what could have been

You know I have a baby now

did you send her to me, in my dreams?

 

She came in February this very year

did you send her to me, as a gift?

It was no coincidence, I fear

I said goodbye to you on february 6th

 

You taught me things, so I got it right

the second time round

it wasn’t such a fright

 

i never knew I could feel so much

for someone I could not even touch

I want you to know I think of you

tell me, do you think of me, too?

 

Emily Tealady 2013

21 thoughts on “I want you to know – Prose for thought

  1. judithkingston

    This made me cry. I have a similar poem stored away somewhere for a little baby that didn’t make it before we conceived my daughter. They are real babies and I believe that when I get to heaven I will meet my third child there. xx

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  2. Stephanie

    Oh Emily, this is a heartbreaking read. I am so sorry you suffered this loss. Well done for writing about it. I am sure that it will mean something to a lot of women.

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    1. Emily Tealady Post author

      thank you stephanie. It was very hard at the time, but I look more positively on it now. I hope people can see there is hope, that sometimes you have to go through tough times to get to the good times x

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  3. Sarah Miles

    I just want to give you a big cuddle. A lot of us have been there and it is so important to remember and acknowledge their brief but very important life. I hope writing this has helped 🙂

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  4. Cathie B

    I had to read this twice as the first time I had to stop halfway through. I try not to think about certain things and this is one of them but this has given me so much reassurance and a bit of peace within myself. Thank you xx

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  5. ginandcornflakes2013Lorraine

    Emily. This is beautiful. I too suffered a loss this year at such an early stage. But I had my Soph to help things heel. I cant imagine how much harder it would have been with the first. Congratulations on your LO now though 🙂 I bet your ‘angel’ enjoyed reading this from the stars. Much love xxx

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  6. Verily Victoria Vocalises

    This is absolutely heartbreaking and totally beautiful and I want to cuddle you Emily. So well-written and such a difficult subject to address. Thank you so much for linking to Prose for Thought – it’s at times like this I feel privileged to share peoples feelings xx

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