I set myself a little challenge: Buy the trousers, wear them, and be CONFIDENT.
I saw these trousers in Primark, and loved them. I love kitschy, 80s/90s style and colours. These trousers were calling to me, from the rack.
My first thought was “I can’t buy these, I’ll look ridiculous.”
But then I thought “But why not? It’s the fashion, it’s the style, they’re only trousers! BUY THEM”
I decided to try them on. They looked OK actually. Rather bright, but they fitted, and I don’t think they made me look too fat or anything. Some bumps and lumps appear, but not too hideous, I thought.
So I bought them.
So I set myself a challenge, I decided to wear them. OUT. IN. PUBLIC. I half thought people would laugh at me, stare at me, talk to each other how awful I looked. I always worry what I look like when I go out. I can’t help it; I just feel so self conscious. I hate catching myself in a shop window and thinking ‘Urrrrgh!”
So I thought I need to stop this. I need to wear these trousers. And I did. They are very comfy, and I wore them with a white t-shirt; like this:
I went to the pub with Dan. Even Dan didn’t say anything about them. We sat outside in the sun, and I had a cider, and I felt comfortable, and happy. We then went to the supermarket (oh what a glamourous life I lead!) and I walked around the shops, without a thought about what I was wearing.
I also wore them the next day when I met up with some bloggers. No-one looked at me oddly. No-one asked me what the hell I was wearing. In fact, I forgot I was wearing them! I wasn’t self concious, I felt happy in my own skin. I made a decision, and I set myself a challenge, and I managed to do it.
I don’t know whether it is because I am a Mum now, and perhaps when I am out and about with Bubs, I don’t have time to stop and think about what everyone else is thinking about me, but I am feeling more confident and happy in myself. I don’t even really mind about my saggy tummy – to be honest it was just as bad before, as I have always been on the plump side. What has changed is my attitude towards myself, and about what others think of me.
What have you challenged yourself to do, and it has made you feel better? Why don’t you try wearing something new and different and see how you feel! Let me know in the comments below!